idunno

February 27th, 2007
Mood: intoxicated, ignored, strangely calm, lonely, missing you, and kinda depressed
Music: Gary Jules - Mad World, Nine Inch Nails - Right Where it Belongs

Writing
On the bus this morning there was this girl. And she looked interesting and I was bored so I just started to write this descriptive paragraph about her. It turned out mediocre, but it is a start.
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"a girl boards the bus, she carries a tripod and wears a black coat and black rimmed glasses with wide side pieces. She has a red skirt with white dots and she sits across from me. She is wearing an additional black skirt underneath (it looks like) and black stockings and cute black boots. Her skin is fair and her hair is copper. On her backpack, there are a few band logos stitched on. Her hair is drawn back into a slight ponytail, tied off with a white hair elastic. I wish I had spiked my hair as I try not to be too obvious as I look at her."
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Late
I slept in and missed my first two classes. I just didn't feel like getting out of bed today. I'm not going to debate weather or not fate exists. I don't really believe in it, but at the same time, it works well to describe certain things. When someone is condemned to death, they can fight it, or they can be at piece with it. I am essentially at that stage. There really is nothing I can do about it, and whining wont really help either. I guess I'm just tired.

When an animal knows it is going to die, it attains a sort of calm...

Pain
I dunno why, but my upper shoulders and neck are sore. Worse then they were yesterday. I don't know, maybe I'm not sleeping as well as I should be...
It is also somewhat interesting to explore how emotional pain is physically manifested by the body. Recently I've had a few nights where I become cold like a block of ice and felt sick. The feeling eventually passed, but I just find it odd how the mind makes the body suffer.

Skirts
This one girl (who's school apparently has a dresscode) was tying her shoes by putting her feet on a bench. This added a small bit of joy to my day.

Poetry
I got so bored in electricity that I just started writing. I don't know if it is worthy of submission yet, but it isn't too bad. I also started writing a short story. And even if I finish writing it, I may never submit it.

Got out early
My electricity prof wasn't feeling well so he let us out half an hour early. This allowed me to catch an earlier bus and this also makes me a bit happier.

Please watch
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WGOohBytKTU
This made me smile.

Creativity
I knew once I got home, my creativity would be gone. And so I'm hoping it will be back tomorrow.

Update
I was feeling down and stuff so I took that sleeping stuff that has the same effect as alcohol. So I dunno. I dunno where I was going with this and thinking is hard so I'll post more stuff later, bye.