rumors of my death

"The rumors of my death have been greatly exaggerated" --Mark Twain

Sorry I haven't written for a while. I lost my motivation and then I had nothing to say. Literally.
Nothing.
At all.

It sucked.

I hate how I get inspired to do things I don't have the skills for. I want to create music. I want to create art and writings that will touch people.

Yesterday, the weather decided to hate. It was pouring rain so I was on the bus, soaked. Earlier it had been 6 degrees Celsius and so I was dressed for the better weather. Then the rain turned to snow and I had a headache. So anyway, I was feeling miserable and glitching. So I decided to listen to music. And then it was insane. Open eye visuals. I wasn't on anything, but I was seeing stuff. And... I was inspired by a song by BT to make an animation to it. And I had an entire story board done up in my head. It was mostly muted sepia tones, and consisted primarily of warfare. I just keep remembering this soldier running toward the viewer, then jumping as a shell goes off behind him. My visuals shifted to an ariel view of a circuit board and the sepia tone was gone. Blue crackles of electricity coursed through it.
So apparently I'm unable to escape electronics class, even when I am on the bus.
I can't escape work either. Last night I dreamt. Two separate dreams actually. One was odd because instead of being in it... I was watching... which made sense actually since the dream was an episode of Futurama. I may tell you all that one later, I'm not sure. But the other dream was about work. I was scheduled for one hour which was odd. And I was wearing pajamas. And the manager talked to me about that. Both managers were there. The back room was huge and full of shiny new equipment. The fish department had a new employee who actually worked. Those stupid dairy guys were messing with our new equipment and I yelled at them. There was a blue nintendo Wii logo on the wall. And one of the things I had to bring in was 'octal potatoes'. It was odd. Oh, I also had my laptop bag there and the strap broke.

ARGGGGGGGGGGG.... http://www.behringer.com/BCD2000/index.cfm?lang=ENG I WANT. PLZ PLZ PLZ. MUST HAVE. Anyone know of similar/cheaper alternatives (this one is over $200CDN).
MUST BE PATIENT... OMFG... JUST WAIT FOR THAT BONUS... ;_;
Gonna blow my bonus on a subwoofer and I dunno. But definitely need a subwoofer or I will die from bass withdrawal.

Apparently, either IRC on my phone or gmail is still costing money. Not much because the data transfer with either is incredibly low. Seems the only thing that costs nothing is the text messaging. Oh well.