hope?

Date: March 8th, 2007
Mood: mad at myself, tired, oddly optimistic

And my phone just crashed three times in a row. I think the application is corrupt.
Even though I don't have money to spend, I end up spending it anyway and this is why credit cards are bad and also wtf, why do I have to be an impulse shopper?
I'm hoping that I get my $1000 bonus soon, but it isn't likely. Even once I've got 1000 hours, it will still take another 200 hours or so for them to process it. Why would I need all this money anyway? Well, life is expensive. Especially when you suck at not spending money. All those morning coffees, snacks when I'm low on blood sugar, etc really adds up. And repairing my aging computer equipment. But also I plan on getting a subwoofer some time soon. And that will probably be $175 atleast. And I want to upgrade my iBook. It came with a 40GB HDD but that is kind of small. I'd like to stick a bigger drive in there. (And I can do that install myself, lol, even on a mac.) So one solution is to work more hours, although that is not really the best idea, since the more nights I work, the less time for homework and the less sleep I get. I only made it to one class today because I slept in because I was so tired. I still am tired.

In much worse news, however, when I went to book off the 17th, I found they had already scheduled me. So I either skip work somehow, or I go late to the rave.

This one guy on my bus today was the leader of materials management of our health system in the region and he looked kinda cool. This girl though... wow. she had the most amazing tattoo on her arm. Highly detailed and Egyptian. It had one of those cats and a lady behind it.

I've been getting to talk to people lately, and I'm feeling somewhat motivated. And I know I'm good enough to teach myself the programming stuff I missed. Hopefully I'll remain motivated enough to finish everything. Well, with all the new music I got yesterday, I'm sure I'll be able to. It is good coding music. But arggggg, I NEED a sub. I'm in the sort of mood I get in when I actually like sitting at my desk and logging into a bunch of computers and doing ten billion things at once. I haven't felt like this for quite a while now, and I hope it lasts. (note, as soon as I sit down to do some work, this mood will, quite likely, vanish). I should do my math homework but I think I will focus on C++ only cause I have a mid-term on that on monday.

Outside was really nice so I wasn't able to remain in a bad mood. But, if I don't find my sunglasses, my eyes are going to die and fall out. omfg so bright.

Although, I do feel like ranting a little. (but I haven't researched ways of FORCING it to do what I want so there may be workarounds.)
I have an iPod. I'm a little pissed off at the limitations -designed- into it.
I've also used a minidisc player and I wasn't 100% happy with it's software either, but it wasn't as bad. The minidisc player had amazing battery life and quality, in both sound and construction. I've no complaints with the sound from my iPod. But why the hell do I have to use it with a computer? Why can't I rip CDs to it directly? Why can't I use it with multiple computers? My iBooks hard disk drive is 40GB. My iPod is 80GB. If I want to fill it, and I use it with my mac, I can't fit enough music on my drive to do it. And maybe I want to load some music from one of my PCs. I think know why they did this. DRM. Digital restrictions management.
I'm sick and tired of companies treating all of us like criminals. I'm pretty sure that the license of the iPod says apple can put whatever they want on it and ultimately owns it more than I do. Similar with my PSP. They intentionally make it so you can't write your own code for it unless you refuse to upgrade the firmware and if you don't upgrade it, then you can't play the newer games. When did we lose ownership of things we have legitimately purchased? What's the point of buying something if you don't own it?
The built in iCal is nice though.

(lol, wrote yesterday but forgot to post it. yay backdating!)