:(
I get to do all the price changes first thing tomorrow morning. Saturdays always have the most price changes.
They keep giving me more responsibilities, even as they reduce the number of hours and staff. Head office is mostly (completely) to blame for that (the banning overtime and reduction of staff).
The more responsibilities makes me feel way more important, however, it makes the job so much more stressful.
This morning, I was so pissed off. I felt something on my hair and thought maybe it was some condensation or something from the ceiling. But I fluffed my hair anyway, to be sure it wasn't debris and it turns out a spider parachuted down onto my head. As it attempted to escape I killed it, since it was v. rude to drop in unannounced like that. And later, I saw another spider. Whether it's due to the stimulants or some other factor, the only way I can explain the way it made me feel is 'squiggly'. I guess 'crawling in my skin' might work too.
I also did an experiment!
Since stimulants were making me have to urinate lots and getting me dehydrated, I decided to eat some salt cause afaik, it leads to water retention. And preliminary results are that it seems to work, at least to some extent. Though, this also probably makes my blood pressure even worse than it already is. I'm not a dr. so I am no expert on the manner. But it did make /logical/ sense!
I should sleep, I gotta try to get there before 3am tomorrow. It's going to be a very busy shift.
Oh yes! I almost forgot.
Something to think about:
When the law itself is flawed/wrong, is it wrong to disobey/fight it?
Who is the criminal, those who break a law that shouldn't even exist or those who made the law or attempt to enforce it?
Friday, July 18, 2008
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Tuesday: A dinosaur adventure!!
So, todays blog is about tuesday. (the 15 of july, 2008)
Finally my schedule worked out in my favor.
I finally got to see a really awesome friend who I hadn't seen for a long time. (well, two friends, actually, though I didn't get to spend much time with one of them).
Chris stopped by to drop off my new (old) switch. It's way huger than I expected. With dual redundant power supplies and 24 switching ports connected via the backplane to the supervisor board with an additional 2 fast ethernet ports and 2 mii connectors. (as well as the console port). Oh! and now I have 9 of the Cisco routers. And one partially completed power supply for them. I'm going to need to make a bunch of cables because I don't have any of the proper ones for these devices. I have the pin outs so the tough part will be finding the connectors.
Once Chris left, me and my other friend went out to get coffee and talk. It was really awesome seeing her again, and even just talking made life seem so much better.
Then we drove around and chilled and then we had an adventure!
There are some really nice trails near my house. We went exploring on one of them. Plants and trees had overgrown the path and suddenly, we were in the amazon! We found this prehistoric lake that seemed like it would be nice to swim in but then there were dinosaurs!! And we were yelling at them "you are a dinosaur!!!!!" and trying to communicate with them by making duck sounds!
My friend made a tail out of a bunch of these long grass things that were growing out of the water. It looked really cute on her and looked like a dinosaur tail (well, I thought it did anyway).
We even had to cross some parts of the path that had turned into swamp! But at least it wasn't lava!!! The path was a lot longer than I remembered it. It seemed to stretch on forever and all the trees and plants were so huge! But that was a good thing because the wonderful moment seemed to last longer.
Sadly, she had to return home, however, it was definitely one of the best afternoons I have had!
There is so much more I wish I could put into words, but I just can't seem to describe how incredibly awesome it was.
In other news, I have my NIN concert ticket, so I'm very excited for that.
Finally my schedule worked out in my favor.
I finally got to see a really awesome friend who I hadn't seen for a long time. (well, two friends, actually, though I didn't get to spend much time with one of them).
Chris stopped by to drop off my new (old) switch. It's way huger than I expected. With dual redundant power supplies and 24 switching ports connected via the backplane to the supervisor board with an additional 2 fast ethernet ports and 2 mii connectors. (as well as the console port). Oh! and now I have 9 of the Cisco routers. And one partially completed power supply for them. I'm going to need to make a bunch of cables because I don't have any of the proper ones for these devices. I have the pin outs so the tough part will be finding the connectors.
Once Chris left, me and my other friend went out to get coffee and talk. It was really awesome seeing her again, and even just talking made life seem so much better.
Then we drove around and chilled and then we had an adventure!
There are some really nice trails near my house. We went exploring on one of them. Plants and trees had overgrown the path and suddenly, we were in the amazon! We found this prehistoric lake that seemed like it would be nice to swim in but then there were dinosaurs!! And we were yelling at them "you are a dinosaur!!!!!" and trying to communicate with them by making duck sounds!
My friend made a tail out of a bunch of these long grass things that were growing out of the water. It looked really cute on her and looked like a dinosaur tail (well, I thought it did anyway).
We even had to cross some parts of the path that had turned into swamp! But at least it wasn't lava!!! The path was a lot longer than I remembered it. It seemed to stretch on forever and all the trees and plants were so huge! But that was a good thing because the wonderful moment seemed to last longer.
Sadly, she had to return home, however, it was definitely one of the best afternoons I have had!
There is so much more I wish I could put into words, but I just can't seem to describe how incredibly awesome it was.
In other news, I have my NIN concert ticket, so I'm very excited for that.
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Related to previous entry, kinda
This is kinda related to my last entry. Was listening to this song at work a yesterday. It was hard not to cry. :(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U9UI-m-Qd8s
"My father came from Japan in 1905
He was 15 when he immigrated from Japan
He worked until he was able to buy respect and build a store
Let me tell you the story in the form of a dream,
I don't know why I have to tell it but I know what it means,
Close your eyes, just picture the scene,
As I paint it for you, it was World War II,
When this man named Kenji woke up,
Ken was not a soldier,
He was just a man with a family who owned a store in LA,
That day, he crawled out of bed like he always did,
Bacon and eggs with wife and kids,
He lived on the second floor of a little store he ran,
He moved to LA from Japan,
They called him 'Immigrant,'
In Japanese, he'd say he was called "Issei,"
That meant 'First Generation In The United States,'
When everybody was afraid of the Germans, afraid of the Japs,
But most of all afraid of a homeland attack,
And that morning when Ken went out on the doormat,
His world went black 'cause,
Right there; front page news,
Three weeks before 1942,
"Pearl Harbour's Been Bombed And The Japs Are Comin',"
Pictures of soldiers dyin' and runnin',
Ken knew what it would lead to,
Just like he guessed, the President said,
"The evil Japanese in our home country will be locked away,"
They gave Ken, a couple of days,
To get his whole life packed in two bags,
Just two bags, couldn't even pack his clothes,
Some folks didn't even have a suitcase, to pack anything in,
So two trash bags is all they gave them,
When the kids asked mom "Where are we goin'?"
Nobody even knew what to say to them,
Ken didn't wanna lie, he said "The US is lookin' for spies,
So we have to live in a place called Manzanar,
Where a lot of Japanese people are,"
Stop it don't look at the gunmen,
You don't wanna get the soldiers wonderin',
If you gonna run or not,
'Cause if you run then you might get shot,
Other than that try not to think about it,
Try not to worry 'bout it; bein' so crowded,
Someday we'll get out, someday, someday.
As soon as war broke out
The F.B.I. came and they just come to the house and
"You have to come"
"All the Japanese have to go"
They took Mr. Ni
People didn't understand
Why did they have to take him?
Because he's an innocent laborer
So now they're in a town with soldiers surroundin' them,
Every day, every night look down at them,
From watch towers up on the wall,
Ken couldn't really hate them at all;
They were just doin' their job and,
He wasn't gonna make any problems,
He had a little garden with vegetables and fruits that,
He gave to the troops in a basket his wife made,
But in the back of his mind, he wanted his families life saved,
Prisoners of war in their own damn country,
What for?
Time passed in the prison town,
He wanted them to live it down when they were free,
The only way out was joinin' the army,
And supposedly, some men went out for the army, signed on,
And ended up flyin' to Japan with a bomb,
That 15 kilotonne blast, put an end to the war pretty fast,
Two cities were blown to bits; the end of the war came quick,
Ken got out, big hopes of a normal life, with his kids and his wife,
But, when they got back to their home,
What they saw made them feel so alone,
These people had trashed every room,
Smashed in the windows and bashed in the doors,
Written on the walls and the floor,
"Japs not welcome anymore."
And Kenji dropped both of his bags at his sides and just stood outside,
He, looked at his wife without words to say,
She looked back at him wiping tears away,
And, said "Someday we'll be OK, someday,"
Now the names have been changed, but the story's true,
My family was locked up back in '42,
My family was there it was dark and damp,
And they called it an internment camp
When we first got back from camp... uh
It was... pretty... pretty bad
I, I remember my husband said
"Are we gonna stay 'til last?"
Then my husband died before they close the camp."
lyrics taken from a site, song is by fort minor
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U9UI-m-Qd8s
"My father came from Japan in 1905
He was 15 when he immigrated from Japan
He worked until he was able to buy respect and build a store
Let me tell you the story in the form of a dream,
I don't know why I have to tell it but I know what it means,
Close your eyes, just picture the scene,
As I paint it for you, it was World War II,
When this man named Kenji woke up,
Ken was not a soldier,
He was just a man with a family who owned a store in LA,
That day, he crawled out of bed like he always did,
Bacon and eggs with wife and kids,
He lived on the second floor of a little store he ran,
He moved to LA from Japan,
They called him 'Immigrant,'
In Japanese, he'd say he was called "Issei,"
That meant 'First Generation In The United States,'
When everybody was afraid of the Germans, afraid of the Japs,
But most of all afraid of a homeland attack,
And that morning when Ken went out on the doormat,
His world went black 'cause,
Right there; front page news,
Three weeks before 1942,
"Pearl Harbour's Been Bombed And The Japs Are Comin',"
Pictures of soldiers dyin' and runnin',
Ken knew what it would lead to,
Just like he guessed, the President said,
"The evil Japanese in our home country will be locked away,"
They gave Ken, a couple of days,
To get his whole life packed in two bags,
Just two bags, couldn't even pack his clothes,
Some folks didn't even have a suitcase, to pack anything in,
So two trash bags is all they gave them,
When the kids asked mom "Where are we goin'?"
Nobody even knew what to say to them,
Ken didn't wanna lie, he said "The US is lookin' for spies,
So we have to live in a place called Manzanar,
Where a lot of Japanese people are,"
Stop it don't look at the gunmen,
You don't wanna get the soldiers wonderin',
If you gonna run or not,
'Cause if you run then you might get shot,
Other than that try not to think about it,
Try not to worry 'bout it; bein' so crowded,
Someday we'll get out, someday, someday.
As soon as war broke out
The F.B.I. came and they just come to the house and
"You have to come"
"All the Japanese have to go"
They took Mr. Ni
People didn't understand
Why did they have to take him?
Because he's an innocent laborer
So now they're in a town with soldiers surroundin' them,
Every day, every night look down at them,
From watch towers up on the wall,
Ken couldn't really hate them at all;
They were just doin' their job and,
He wasn't gonna make any problems,
He had a little garden with vegetables and fruits that,
He gave to the troops in a basket his wife made,
But in the back of his mind, he wanted his families life saved,
Prisoners of war in their own damn country,
What for?
Time passed in the prison town,
He wanted them to live it down when they were free,
The only way out was joinin' the army,
And supposedly, some men went out for the army, signed on,
And ended up flyin' to Japan with a bomb,
That 15 kilotonne blast, put an end to the war pretty fast,
Two cities were blown to bits; the end of the war came quick,
Ken got out, big hopes of a normal life, with his kids and his wife,
But, when they got back to their home,
What they saw made them feel so alone,
These people had trashed every room,
Smashed in the windows and bashed in the doors,
Written on the walls and the floor,
"Japs not welcome anymore."
And Kenji dropped both of his bags at his sides and just stood outside,
He, looked at his wife without words to say,
She looked back at him wiping tears away,
And, said "Someday we'll be OK, someday,"
Now the names have been changed, but the story's true,
My family was locked up back in '42,
My family was there it was dark and damp,
And they called it an internment camp
When we first got back from camp... uh
It was... pretty... pretty bad
I, I remember my husband said
"Are we gonna stay 'til last?"
Then my husband died before they close the camp."
lyrics taken from a site, song is by fort minor
we need a revolution
I still haven't fully switched over to completely free computing yet. I know I should but part of me loves the convenience I have with certain proprietary systems. I know this is wrong. I know I need to fight harder to support freedom.
Constantly, in todays world, governments and organizations are trying to restrict our freedoms more and more.
Apathy will be our downfall.
Not enough people seem to care. Not enough people take the time to educate themselves to what is going on all around them. How many people even know about ACTA? We let our freedoms be taken away one by one, little by little.
Unfortunately, once they are gone, it's significantly more difficult to get them back.
The more I see, the more I am convinced that we have to do SOMETHING. We have to fight to protect our rights, our freedoms.
We have to rise up and unite in our cause. The enemy has incredible resources. They have armies/police/security guards. They have vicious attack lawyers. They have seemingly unlimited funds.
We can't let that stop us.
There are those who would argue that freedom of speech is wrong because it would be abused. If you don't like what you hear, don't listen to it. Just because you fear what someone might say, that is no reason to tell people they can't say it.
Censorship is wrong.
If I pay for a CD, I WILL NOT let some industry assholes tell me that I am wrong to transfer it to my computer and to my music player. If I am going to pay money for something and I will not be allowed to own it, to actually use and enjoy it, why will I waste my money? Where is the logic there?
I'm not going to buy a cd to keep in my car and a cd to keep at home.
And I am not going to keep quiet.
The corporations think they are 'right'. They claim to have the moral high ground. They don't. All they are is bullies, trying to control consumers through threats and fear.
It seems like these days, everyone is a criminal. I heard about "[a] method of providing air travel security for passengers traveling via an aircraft comprises situating a remotely activatable electric shock device on each of the passengers in position to deliver a disabling electrical shock when activated." You know they won't stop there. They'll use that as a test, phase the device in. And then require it for more and more things. Until the entire populace is under control. Wearing something like that completely demeaning. It also says "hi I am a criminal and will be treated as such."
Governments would argue that the threat of terror is enough to warrant such a device. They have done it before (see the PATRIOT act for just one of many examples of this) and they will do it again. If we let them.
http://www.aclu.org/safefree/spying/fisa.html
How can we just stand by and let this happen?
Does the constitution mean nothing anymore?
Something HAS to be done.
I have no idea what CAN be done at this point.
Constantly, in todays world, governments and organizations are trying to restrict our freedoms more and more.
Apathy will be our downfall.
Not enough people seem to care. Not enough people take the time to educate themselves to what is going on all around them. How many people even know about ACTA? We let our freedoms be taken away one by one, little by little.
Unfortunately, once they are gone, it's significantly more difficult to get them back.
The more I see, the more I am convinced that we have to do SOMETHING. We have to fight to protect our rights, our freedoms.
We have to rise up and unite in our cause. The enemy has incredible resources. They have armies/police/security guards. They have vicious attack lawyers. They have seemingly unlimited funds.
We can't let that stop us.
There are those who would argue that freedom of speech is wrong because it would be abused. If you don't like what you hear, don't listen to it. Just because you fear what someone might say, that is no reason to tell people they can't say it.
Censorship is wrong.
If I pay for a CD, I WILL NOT let some industry assholes tell me that I am wrong to transfer it to my computer and to my music player. If I am going to pay money for something and I will not be allowed to own it, to actually use and enjoy it, why will I waste my money? Where is the logic there?
I'm not going to buy a cd to keep in my car and a cd to keep at home.
And I am not going to keep quiet.
The corporations think they are 'right'. They claim to have the moral high ground. They don't. All they are is bullies, trying to control consumers through threats and fear.
It seems like these days, everyone is a criminal. I heard about "[a] method of providing air travel security for passengers traveling via an aircraft comprises situating a remotely activatable electric shock device on each of the passengers in position to deliver a disabling electrical shock when activated." You know they won't stop there. They'll use that as a test, phase the device in. And then require it for more and more things. Until the entire populace is under control. Wearing something like that completely demeaning. It also says "hi I am a criminal and will be treated as such."
Governments would argue that the threat of terror is enough to warrant such a device. They have done it before (see the PATRIOT act for just one of many examples of this) and they will do it again. If we let them.
http://www.aclu.org/safefree/spying/fisa.html
How can we just stand by and let this happen?
Does the constitution mean nothing anymore?
Something HAS to be done.
I have no idea what CAN be done at this point.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
way more whiny and emo than I intended
I was gonna write a nice long entry about lots of stuff.
But I'm exhausted and crashing. Hard.
[note: this turned out really shitty and emo and I didn't intend it that way. Sorry]
I'm sick of wasting my days off.
I'm sick of fucking scheduling conflicts.
I'm so incredibly sick of never seeing my friends anymore.
It feels like I'm invisible. Like if I didn't send someone a message, they would probably not even think of me and not send me a message. And sometimes, even when I do send a message, I don't get a reply.
Am I invisible? Am I silent?
Do I even exist anymore?
I guess everyone is too busy or something. And I feel like I am always left behind or forgotten.
The other night, I woke up so dizzy I could barely stand up. I wasn't on anything at all so I have no idea why. My ear kinda hurt but then it felt better. I ended up seeing things for that entire morning. And I knew I saw something but when I blinked, whatever it was always disappeared. I don't think it was lack of sleep because I've been sleeping a lot but maybe it was because I forgot to eat that day. And I was probably dehydrated too.
I'm having trouble hanging on to consciousness right now, so I'm probably going to disappear or pass out for a while. Also, this would be unreadable without spellcheck.
But I'm exhausted and crashing. Hard.
[note: this turned out really shitty and emo and I didn't intend it that way. Sorry]
I'm sick of wasting my days off.
I'm sick of fucking scheduling conflicts.
I'm so incredibly sick of never seeing my friends anymore.
It feels like I'm invisible. Like if I didn't send someone a message, they would probably not even think of me and not send me a message. And sometimes, even when I do send a message, I don't get a reply.
Am I invisible? Am I silent?
Do I even exist anymore?
I guess everyone is too busy or something. And I feel like I am always left behind or forgotten.
The other night, I woke up so dizzy I could barely stand up. I wasn't on anything at all so I have no idea why. My ear kinda hurt but then it felt better. I ended up seeing things for that entire morning. And I knew I saw something but when I blinked, whatever it was always disappeared. I don't think it was lack of sleep because I've been sleeping a lot but maybe it was because I forgot to eat that day. And I was probably dehydrated too.
I'm having trouble hanging on to consciousness right now, so I'm probably going to disappear or pass out for a while. Also, this would be unreadable without spellcheck.
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